The blindfold is on. It’s completely dark. You’ve got
someone behind you, most likely a person you can trust. They are pushing you
forward. It’s a challenge. You trust them, you are working together, but you
really want to see what’s next. Can’t you at least sneak a peak down and see
the floor below you? It takes all you’ve got to not pull that bandana off! You
can trust the person but what if… What if their perspective isn’t as
good as yours and they miss something? You could fall! What if they push you faster than you
can run? What if they trip you up and slow you down? It’s scary.
This is very much the journey that the Lord has led me on
over these last 20 months now. There have been a lot of blind steps. Almost all
the steps have been blind. He has asked me to do, led me to do, some ridiculous
things. I get asked questions all the time about what’s next and my frequent
answer is, “ya know, I really don’t know yet…”
Here are a few things I do know:
You’ve got to be moving to be led.
So many times we let
fear (or excuses) cripple us to the point that we just sit still. We don’t know
the full plan so we sit still until we do. We don’t know what’s next so we stay stuck in what’s now. If you want to be moved in a certain direction, you’ve got start moving your feet. God will always
reveal just enough of the plan, at the exact time, right when you need to know it.
He has got more for you.
More than you could ever
imagine. The plans that God has for your life are so good that you couldn’t
even dream them up for yourselves. The key, trade something little, for
something huge. Trade your human dreams, for his divine dreams. What he wants
to happen, will be accomplished. Be willing. Say, “yes Lord!”
You can trust him.
He is the one Father that loves us perfectly and knows us, because He intimately formed us! He knows the true desires of our hearts. Not the desires we “have” the deceive us, but the true desires that we have. Desires that we don’t even know are our desires, He wants to led us to them. He wants good things for our lives. He is always working things out for our good.
Last Tuesday (Oct 4th) the blind steps of faith
continued for me. I flew 21 hours to Nairobi, Kenya because that is where I
felt God was calling me. I needed to continue learning about orphanages. Take
blind steps. I arrived at 12:30am not having confirmation from either hostel I contacted, aka not knowing where I was staying that night. I walked outside the airport
and two different people with “r. bodine” signs were waiting for me. Take blind
steps. I was about to take my first Matatu ride to Kijabe, not intimidated but
not sure how things were going to turn out. I squeeze into the back of the
Matatu and notice 3 mzungus sitting in the front. We start talking. “where you
from? How old are you? oh, what church or organization are you with?”
“yeah, we are here with an organization called Adventures in Missions.”
Take blind steps.
Do you see? Blindness, when being led by the Father, is not
blindness at all.
